1. I love you. I miss you. You mean the world to me and I don’t know what I am doing here. I am sorry I am not perfect. Physically. Philosophically. Mentally. […] I wish things were different right now; lots of things would not be happening. It takes its toll. But I am coming. I am. And I will. And, finally, this will all stop and the magpies will always be in twos and the sea will roar and we’ll wake up in tents at the first rays and the grass will be green and the salmon will jump and the orca will breach and the raven will soar. I promise. <3
2. Why do I bother even addressing you collectively? My sense of justice prevents me from shutting up when I should. My love for the truth makes me engage. And that is where I fail, for you deserve not a drop of my attention. *sigh*
3. Murderers! One day, karma will bite you right back in the arse.
4. I am sorry. I do love you, but I am snappy lately. The past few months have not been kind. I hope I can make it up to you some day. Soon.
5. I will try to see you tonight. If I can’t, 30 euros will have been wasted and I will miss you and add one more regret to the pile. I will try. And that is something.
6. I am sorry I am late. I truly am. If you only knew how my evening/night went… And I shouldn’t even be doing this and be doing that instead. But I will. I apologize to you both.
7. Please help me.
8. I know not what I am doing wrong, but I would like some money… Please?
9. Fuck you! You ruined my life and I wish I’d never ever EVER met you. I hate you. You are the most despicable person who has ever crossed my path. I know that without you I wouldn’t be where I am now - things happen for a reason - but the core of my being has been changed, traumatized and abused, and THAT I regret. I hope you rot in Hell, and without pain to anyone else - merely you. You shouldn’t even be on this list… but I had to let it out. I want my innocence back. My trust in others. But I will always be better than you.
10. Hang in there. You shall make it. Step by step.